i dont know who is reading this. but anw, so 2010 has past and i have not really achieved anything much. so demoralising.... i am still under the control of my mom, and i cant seem to get out of it... well maybe it is my fault that i didnt do anything to rebel. but i just cant seem to do that... i dont want her to feel like she has failed as a mom... but that means i have to compromise my freedom? so much so that i have lost someone quite important to me? man... i feel dumb.... or shld i just blame myself for not being able to fight for this love?... even my friends are slowly slipping away... are you all prioritising? or am i being self withdrawing? or both? i really want school to start... to put my mind off the only thing that is making me feel sad and lost. and to see my friends again. so that i know that they are still there, like how they are always there before the holidays...

ok enough of being emo....

yupp. A new year= a new start! 2011! 18 years old. which means legally clubbing and car licence is not far away from reach! but first thing first, A levels!!! ARG!!!! damn scared! if you are equally scared, SCREAM!!! YES! i say SCREAM!!! ok enough of being retarded... haha Yupp. so i will be busier than ever, seeing SYF coming and hopefully Germany trip too! whao i can feel the stress boiling inside already! yupps so just to be mentally prepared!