So i went to my new school, CJC. attended the orientation. the guys in my group were damn enthu, but the girls were not, so i have to follow and keep it down. then the girls will not talk to the guys and the guys will not talk to the girls... but anyhow, the first two days were tiring, maybe because i still cant get use to the 'wake up early' routine. Oh wells i would be in another group starting Mon, because we will be going into our classes. we had to choose our combi, so i picked PCME! yay but not sure if i could get in, since so many ppl are going into that subject combination. cant wait for next week's dragon boating... missed it lah. went to try it when i was sec one, and then i fell in love with it, but too bad didn't get to do it again...

tried making Oreo cheese cake today, and i am waiting for the cake to be ready, hope it is a nice one! lols

in just a few days i am going to go into my new school and start another phase of education... man i will definitely going to miss my holidays...

Anw on sat, i went out for dinner with my family. and so we were waiting for a car park. The queue into the car park was very long.... so while waiting, we saw quite a few cars coming out of the car park, but the line did not seem to move. then when finally we got into the car park (after 30min). to our horror, we see a man trying to park his car properly... he twisted and turned the car here and there, went forward the reverse. then he tried again and again, but was not able to park into the lot. then i think a man from the waiting line stepped out of his car and lend a helping hand. so i think for 30min, this guy had been trying to park his car and was blocking the flow of traffic. My father also noticed that he had a just pass sign pasted in the front of his car. but i was wondering why didn't the guy park his car at home and take a bus or something. he should know that sat nights are peak period for people to eat out and havoc. He should at least practice his parking skills first before driving out. He could conveniently practice his driving skills at the multi storey car park next to his house. Go to the top deck to practice or something, he cant be so selfish and block the rest of the line. i mean people need to eat. maybe the car park was quite full, but still, he could be kind enough to take a bus, knowing that he cant park that well and that malls will be packed with people driving cars. That's the thing with all humans including myself, we are selfish creatures. or maybe we could just be ignorant to other people's feelings...

Went Karaoke with hui yee, jian ping, and xin yi. we were suppose to meet at 10.30am because K lunch starts at 11am. then we also made a deal that the latecomer will treat the rest to something ( this is to prevent what always happens including today). So i set off early from home, and even made an effort to wake up at 9am. Then when i got out of home, i realised i forgot to bring my umbrella, and i am going to be late. so i phoned jian ping and hui yee to ask if they brought. And guess what? jian ping told me: " eh i never bring leh". joc: " then how here raining leh, nvm where are you now?" . jp: "oh i am at the Mrt, er... tiong station". joc: " what tiong! eh thats damn far lah, you need like 30 mins to get here, and look at the time, 10.15 already. you damn gg leh". jp: " hehe." then another one. joc:" hui yee did you bring an umbrella?" hui yee:" yah i did." joc:"ok where are you?"
hy:" er bus stop." joc:"which one? dont tell me is the one at your house..." hy:"yah how you know? so clever." joc:"wth?? thats like....gg". ok so i went back to take my umbrella. ended up we all were late ( hehe). i reached at 10.42am but i am still the earliest.( haha) ok so next was jp, then xin yi, then last biut not least hy!!!!! then she was suppose to treat us right? but she said she did not have enough money with her. then we had a deal secretly... she will only treat the first! so that's me! haha so anyway i will still get my treat! (yah but still in the end she never give me a treat loh.... haha hy you owe me one!). ok so we finally made it to the karaoke itself. and we created a havoc inside. like really very unglamourous. we were dancing and jumping around. and we were so afraid that they had security cameras in the cabin.(that will be that most.... horrible thing). ok then we went to jurong point and did CNY shopping. it failed because only hy bought her shirt.

so thats for today... hehe!

i realise something about humans. they like to... you could say fault others for something that had gone wrong, when they themselves had also done that same fault before. for instantce, like a mom blaming her kid for being picky with his food. When all the while the mother had been picking bean sprouts out of all her soup. Then another example, a man was driving on the road one day, and he stopped behind a car that stop illegaly in the middle of the road. he cursed loudly saying that the driver should not be so inconsiderate and selfish for obstructing the traffic. His daughter turned around to see if any car was stuck behind that car like her father. To her surprise, none. Then few minutes later, the man received a call, and he started talking into the phone for a long time while driving. the girl was shocked! her father was just faulting the driver for being inconsiderate and breaking the law, the next minute, he himself was breaking the law and being so inconsiderate for her life! man... i think this is totally ironic! i mean thats humans for one thing. they dont step out of themselves to see what did they do wrongly before they condemn others. Haiz... we humans...

had been down the whole day yesterday... i pondered for the whole day, tried to escape the topic with my family. the more they consoled me the more i felt useless. so finally, i thought it was time i should let go. no point crying over spilled milk. although i still feel self pity sometimes, but i was able to get on with life. no more that cry baby. i struggle to live life normally. and i did it! i am not so much affected by it.

i am myself again with more frequent PMS i suppose....

i collected my results today in school at 2pm. as i waited to get my results, i still had a slight hope that i would do well. when i realised the whole cohort passed their English, it further gave me hope that i could do well. then it was my turn to get results. i was both excited and nervous. what a weird combination... so i went up to the teacher and get my results. my hands shook unwillingly as i tore open the damn thing. then i was crushed when i saw the little numbers beside 'L1R5'. i was stupid enough to even think that i would do well. for 10 years of education, i didn't expect myself to not meet my expectation. maybe my results might be not bad for some people, but i just cant accept the fact. i don't know... maybe it was PMS or something...

i really thank all those people that was concerned about my results, and i am also very sorry to ignore all the messages and calls... maybe i just need time to accept this fact.

It's the new year... a new beginning for many things in life! soon i will get my results and then i will need to choose my school. it might be a tough choice or a easy one. who knows? following it i will start studying like cheem subjects and meet new friends. This time it will be a little different, anyhow i am going to a mix school. a different environment means new challenges and unexpected outcomes. All this just seem so weird. i dont know maybe i am too tired thats why i sound so emo...

Yesterday some LOM ppl and i went to pris hse to countdown. We played and eat and talk and watched tv. i tried to set a new record for myself for not sleeping throughout, but at last i cant take it anymore! i slept... or rather i tried to sleep. then when i am almost falling asleep, i will hear something like *Stalin is better* or *Japan started the war* then *opposition party*. dont get deceive by their looks, although they are guys that are like young, their volume is like a deaf uncle talking! LOUD. When finally they all stopped talking and start falling asleep, it is 6plus in the morning.... i dont mean to say like they cannot talk, but i think they should try to soften down. it is damn cute lah, their volume will increase gradually, and then till a point that it was unbearable, we say keep your mouth shut, then they soften, and then they increase the volume again! haha it is like a routine! But anway i thought yesterday's trash it out session was kinda cool. i really hope we will all keep the secrets we hear within us and not spread around. ok then we slept for 2 hours in silence, then i set the alarm to 8.30 so that we can all wake up early. but unfortunately, when the damn lound alarm rang, it was right beside renyi's ears! i think that made him alert instanly! totally effective! haha sorry... i didnt put it there on purpose... oh wells... i think he will forgive me! we had breakfast at macs then headed home.

i went straight to my popo hse to bathe. then after that go eat lunch with my aunt and cousins at a chinese restaurant! then go to the airport to sent my aunt off! throughout i only slept in the car for a few minutes... then i went back home at 3 plus then sleep all the way till 6! power sia! hardcore! i am very proud of myself! haha...

so i shall wait and see how things go!