i got my confirmation dates and stuff. guess what it is at jan the 5th, 6 pm mass. so i dont have to go for sunday mass the next day!!! haha dont need to wake up so early. hmmm my confi name is........drum roll please.............BELINDA yupp belinda. so my full name will be jocelyn belinda kow yuen teng after my confirmation. yay haha.... today legion having countdown party at nigel's hse. but sadly, i cant go so i am stuck at home with me and myself. my dad go church for countdown my mom, i dont know where she going lah. so all in all i am alone. going emo again.!!! haha

hmmmm two more days of holiday and school is starting soon. holidays really flew past very quickly. i didnt do much during this holiday. was slagging all the way. i will be sec 3 soon really very scared. i dont even know hat is path for me.whether i will cope with my studies or can i get along well with my fellow classmates. what if i fail my ca1?or not be able to make it to sec 4? so many things to worry about. dont know if i am ready for all this...

anyway i just remembered i havent finish my homework!!!! shit!!!! have to rush to finish it. how to memorise all those chinese sentences???? oh man i am in trouble. arggggg it is going to be counted in my CA1 results!!! oh my --- ahhhhhhhhhhhh.................

hi!!! i am back from Band camp!!! it is like a 24 hours camp lah!!! but i really enjoyed it!!!! it is a fun all the way camp. we didnt touch our instruments at all ( except for the enzome competitions). we played games all the way. we got night walk in the night(like duh) everyone knows i am a scaredy-cat so i am very scared when i heard that we were having a night walk. who knows what pleasant or nasty surprises we will have on the way. it is a pair night walk so i went with xin yi. luckly she wasnt that sacred. on the way i was so scared that i grabbed her hand so tight that i think her hand almost broke.hahaha sorry xin yi did i hurt you? but after the walk i realised it was nothing much actually. just walk loh. i damn stupid lah. anyway after the whole thing we washed the stuff for bbq. then bath at 12 am so fun... then sleep at 1. me and my friends didnt want to sleep. cos we usually didnt sleep at the last night of band camp but the problem is this camp only have 1 night so we didnt want to sleep. we waited till our teacher in charge went out then we got up to play uno. finished the 1 game but guess what? our teacher in charge peep into the room then saw us not sleeping so she furiously stomp in. and wanted us to sleep. then she confiscated my friend's uno cards her mickey mouse hand gloves and my pooh bear. haha we got it back at the end of the camp. thats all folks

Merry Christmas ppl!!!! it is er 1.06 now and when i finish this it will be like i dont know what time.... anyway i went for midnight mass. but it was like hmmm....so crowded!!!!! me and my family members had to stand for the whole damn mass and pageant. however it is spelt. then the pageant is so boring i almost slept.haiz.....then finally the mass finally started. in the name of the father...........blah blah....then is the first reading and so on... whao so long.my leg was aching like i dont know what....by gospel.haha anyway it was so crowded that we were pack like sardines....haha... then after 2 hours... it ended. than we sing JOY TO THE WORLD as usual. as the priest and the altar servers procession out. it was a little anti-climax cos the song is so lively and they walk so slowly.hahaha tomorrow my family is holding a party. yah so it will be boring day.so wish me good luck!!!! once again merry christmas!!!!

almost forgotten to blog today untill abi said she was reading nicholas's blog. anyway, yersterday had conference call on chan's phone. with let me think.... er clarrisa,jeremy,abi,christian and of cos chan. i was watching Heros than clarrisa sms me tho call chan. and then when i called, it was so noisy that i cant concentrate half the time what was showing on the tv. then i miss Heros. we were toking abt is having split personailty a power to safe the world. yah then the show ended. i decided i should pack my room. so i went into my room to pack while the rest were toking about tv programes while i am listening to what happen cos i wasn't watching. hmmm... oh yah then jeremy started to speck chinese... than i say "pls lah, channel 5" christian didnt understand what i meant so he switch his tv to channel 5. then he realise it was the some boring show and there was nothing to watch so he ask why i said that. i explained the whole thing. so he say" then if i say suria means we must speak malay lah". Dumb. i am like pratically telling everyone what we tok abt on the phone.dumb.anyway.. have nothing special today.

we got band prac on this friday... i tot no more but in the end have.haiz. not that i dont like band practices. but the tought of sitting there for more than 3 hours playing the instrument without rest is quite a scary thing. and the good thing is we will be having band camp on the 27-28 of dec. although only 2 day 1 night, i still like it!!! cos band camp is a very fun thing!!! cant wait!!!!

tomorrow going out with legion friends. go bowling. Xiao Ming ppl organise so i tot i have nothing to do so i agreed.but the thing is i dont know how to bowl.than like so pai sei to sit there doing nothing. but i dont know how to bowl, wat if every ball go into the "drain" how. also very pai sei. Haiz.... try to learn lah. dont know what to wear tomorrow. any suggestions?

i am back from ANTIOCH camp!!! was a nice experience. got to know new friends. and reunite with old ones. still wondering if i should join antioch.... hmmm got no school today so i went to my mama's office.nothing to do. so i read the lit book. TO KILL A MOCKING-BIRD. i manage to finish the 2nd chapter. the book is quite nice but alot of difficult words.(i know limited vocab lah) have nothing to tok abt. anyway thinking of a way to make money. no pocket money than have to go work but i lazy. how?!

yesterday went to acs to help but guess wat?i tot i was going to die of heart attack but in the end i ended up being scolded by my instructor...........shall not tok bout that. the acs boys were naughty as usual, they were kids lah so i dont really bother. i was shocked of my life,it was my little juniors, they actually opened up to my teachings. i dunnoe what happened to them lah, funny sia. usually they will be running about playing a fool but yersterday, they actually sat down and listen to me and one of he older ones told them to sit down and not play a fool!!!! i was so damn shock!!!! they were so good boys yersterday!!! starting to love them!!!! hahaha....

i am still having the jxy blues so i was like reading the peoples blog to like see how they were doing lah. then i came across alexandra's blog. sorry alex, no offense. Jerome's name actually appeared 7 times !!!! shocking sia... then. havent finish reading the rest's blog will try my best to finish by today loh....hmmmmmm....nothing much to say...

yersterday had conference with my friends, shien ling and diyanah... toking biut when to meet and stuff. then suddenly i felt like i am not alone, i actually had friends that cared about my well being and stuff. really felt very touched. thanks guys

i am sick!!!!! it all started with a minor soar throat, then i didnt care about it, so i continue eating chocolates and other heaty stuff. then it followed by flu and cough... man now going to have fever. so damn sad lah..... God Bless me!!!!

sorry ppl for that abrupt ending for my last post. cos my mum wanted me to sleep in the middle of my posting. so i had no choice to end my post in a odd note. anyways er yesterday was Christmas party for LOM Junior (Chinese). yay was quite fun lah though most of the time i was quite alone.ha ha anyway, lets not talk about saddening stuff. er.... ya i went home alone cos the rest went to pet's house to put stuff. then they went to tampanises mall to eat dinner. my parents were rushing me home to eat my dinner so i went home alone. the park connector was very long walked at a comfortable speed. but the damn connector was long, so my foot hurts went i reached the mrt station. i was praying i could get a seat on the train. but guess Wat?! all the seats are taken. so i tought i would get a seat went the train moved to the following stations. so i waited and waited but still no seat!!!!then went the train reach er... city hall, a huge crowd came into the train, i am still standing and the train was as filled as sardines in a can. maybe worst than that. i am not kidding or exaggerating, never in my life have i been in a train with so many ppl. CRAZY!!!! anyway... i stand through out the whole journey from tampanises to commonwealth station. my leg was almost breaking went i got off of the damn train.

today hmmmm... did nothing in special. i was just slagging but school is going to reopen soon, and haven't bought my next year's books. planned to buy it on wed. i haven't even touch my books for damn long. had been brain dead since er October when school closed. haiz don't know if i know what is 1+1 or not. OK maybe not that bad lah.

Tomorrow i planned to go acs to help out. hmm.... i don't know what will happen tomorrow but i think i would have most of my blood vessels busted. ha ha just kidding. anyway thank you all for reading my blog. i know it is abit dumb but hope you all like it!!!!

blogging now.... hmmm today is the end of the confirmation class prep programe... so after the class, i went for chang nian da hui... also directly translated as long year big meeting... haha trying to be funny lah but cant make it.. today not much ppl go mainly ... the older ppl.... not much of noise but still quite ok....er we watch a movie called............drums rolls pls.............. FINDING NEMO!!!! hehe . althoigh i watched finding nemo before but this time was better cos there was lame jokes from of cos.... from christophere.

hmmmmmmmmmm..........where did i last stop.... oh yar....... stoped at so oh yar cant take the scolding but i am glad they actually told me what i did wrong so that i can work on it and improve lah......dont blame ygz... i still love you all.....
Day 5,
last day
it was also sp reavelling day.......... guess who my sp was!!!! Simon!!!! my puppet. the reason why he got this name was because he was like a puppet when we practice the 1st time. but from then on he became better of cos. anyway it was the last day and every one was sad lah... so ok blah blah then pack up and go home. i waited untill everyone's parents were here.why? cos i was the first to finish packing... haha hmmmm......nothing much actually. but after everything all of the ygz was so tired i think we just dropped dead... after packing all of our personal belongings, we went for lunch at the nearby foodcourt. pris joined us and jerome and christian left on their own. maybe bcos they were too tired to even eat. after eating we went back and grab our stuff then we hop onto the taxi then went home.on the way home i was trying to keep my eyes wide open but cant so i dozed off....zzz..... i rushed straight to the bed even before i had a chance to take a super fast bath.so i didnt go for sunday mass which i thick all the ygz never go also. but yah i slept till the next morning er lets see.........10 am... hehehe i missed the first day's confirmation prep class. so sorry but have fun reading me blog bah

i am back from camp!!!!
although i am very sad that camp is over bcos it was very useful but it is ok bcos i noe i would have another chance... some where in next year.
being a ygz in this year's jxy i personaly feel it was very stress.campers might think that being a ygz is a very honourable thing. but let me just give you a kind advice. that you are so wrong. bcos before being an ygz i was dying and hoping and what not, to be one but when i really became one, i regretted my choice. cos it was so stress and difficult. but this process of being a ygz and like going through all the ups and downs with all of the other ygz i really learnt alot. what they taught me and what i learnt when i handle differnt cases it was undiscrible!!! if i have a chance to turn back time, i would stil chose to be a ygz!!! i know i may not do my job well enuf but i really enjoyed the process...many thanks to all the ygz i love you.

now to what happened in camp
nigel-camp chief
angela-vice camp chief
luke, mag, me-shen xiu
christophere, cuiling, jerome-shi xi
mark, monica, christian-kang le
day one ygz arrived at chij kc holding school at 8+ then we did some praperations and waited for the arrival for the campers!!! and an unluckly thing happened to me!!!! me and monica was stacking up the 4th floor chairs then christophere came and say "why you all pack the room for what?i just need the first room!!!" then we were like.... i tot you told us that you wanted the whole 4th floor?! then both of us flared up then started hacking chris... then i kicked him but unfortuanately missed so i kicked the wall. my toes were swelling!!!! so damn painful!!!i almost cried out but no i didn't.. anyway after much rest i manage to walk.. and my fellow helpful ygz, cuiling and mag helped me on my wound. so the rest was cleaning up and i just sat there rubbing my swollen foot. felt so bad... sorry ygz... hehehe. then after cleaning up, i hop all my way into ygz room...then guess what? cuiling offered her poker cards so we gladly accepted it and me jerome and christian and cuiling stared playing black jack, sort of gambled with money, but it was fake lah of cos... so then blah blah... ok then nigel came we got meeting then he went off, back to school then pet came and deliver lunch. i can still clearly remember it was dry chicken rice. blah blah then we had dance practice. had to dance with my hurting foot....but ok can dance so i was fine in dance. er blah blah then campers came. i was at the registration counter, with christophere and angela. plus two other "bell boys" jerome and christian hahaha to bring the campers to the hall. anyway then kaimu!!!
nigel- james blunt
angela- avril Lavigne
christophere,christian,jerome-MCR
luke- justine timberlake
mag- gwen stefani
me- kelly clarkson
cuiling- rihanah
mark-the click five lead singer
monica-fergie
that was our rolls for the play.... funny. then after that we show them camp dance. looks difficult but quite easy. anyway than was wan dao. so campers were suppose to state down their expectations fro the camp. day end.... ( for campers but not for ygz)
we had meeting every night. so first day meeting, pet commented that the wan dao was not like a wan dao.. so we tried to improve on it!!!
meeting end at 4.30am slept at 5 am and then we slept for 2 hrs and woke up to prepare for the next day. then morning!!! mag was out for match and so left me and luke for zhao dao loh.... i tried to help luke with the songs and during group discusions i tried to discuss with my group in the very spiritual way, in the way most ygz do. yah it turned out to be fine..... so i was glad.... blah blah then after lunch it was my programe, i am suppose to be very firm and whan i got into the room i am suppose to ask the campers about their greatest fear. guess what, when i got into the room with that damn stern face, they got goose bumps... haha they were obviously very scared.... my progrme was a success!!!! then was cluedo!!!! robin was trying to help us with the setting of mood part. he ordered the whole camp to not talk for their dinner and after dinner befor cluedo.... damm shocking to see all of them not talking esp the girls!!!!
then i have to die at the end of cluedo at the 2nd floor toilet....
night meeting.... not much scolding from angela or pet or robin, it was just the part before cluedo cos we were all slagging so not enuf time to prepare ourselves. after night meeting me and christian got night duty from 4.30- 7 but i was so tired i slept at 5.30 then christian slept about 5.50am... both of us was so damn tired we dozed off the next day during some activities. and pet saw. so during night meeting we were scolded for dozing off. cos we were not suppose to show our tiredness to the campers but i just cant stop myself.
day 4 er..... cant remember anything oh we got da xing shi xi!!!!
we got campers tied up with each other then we want them to clean up the toilets tied together.... then after that got field cooking nigel, robin, cuiling and jerome went down to help in setting up the fire.... me? after washing the potatoes, i went around the groups to see if they need help then when i realised that i was actuallydoing nothing walking around so i decided to settle down at the ygz fire pit then holding a plate of potatoes and carrots so that i wouldn't sleep i watch as pet the chief cook. then when everything was almost ending, some one suggested we bbq bananas. so i tot of bbqing bananas and netaila... then i remembered that ygz have some netaila left so i brought it out and shared wif the campers and that i was scolded during night meeting....anyway let me continue.er than we have kang le. mass game was almost ruined by a bunch of footballers but luckly, mark insisted that we have to play the game so we didn't give in. we had to stop the game at 6 so campers have to play the game in a very limited timing. i was shouting like green grp go.... or trench commander hurry your grp is dying but no one heard, maybe becos i was soft of luke just covered my voice, then me and my big mouth commented that can ygz play? and i was scolded again in night meeting.
during night meeting, angela say " jojo did you tot what would happen if we have not enuf netaila to go around? did you think before taking out the netaila" then robin say did any of ygz helped during field cooking or all sitting around the stove? exept for some.... then he added on a ygz ask if we can play the mass game when she knew that the campers themselves dont even have time to play the game.... so that person was me cos i was the only one that ask if ygz can play... haiz.... kena reprimanded very sad but i know wat they meant lah.. they all meant well. but excuse me i am a human cant take so ....